Fear of the Freedom

„I have made a silent compact with myself not to change a line of what I write. I am not interested in perfecting my thoughts, nor my actions. Beside the perfection of Turgenev I put the perfection of Dostoevski (is there anything more perfect than „The Ethernal Husband“?). Here, then, in one and the same medium, we have two kinds of perfection. But in van Gogh’s letters there is a perfection beyond either of these. It is the triumph of individual over art.“
— Henry Miller, „The Tropic of Cancer“

People are afraid of technology, no question about it. Some apprehension about new gadgets or products is just fear of the unknown that can easily be overcome with a little experience.

People are afraid of the different, some kind of „emotional dimension“ can setup our view of life and can build or ruin our individuality…

People are afraid of their freedom… It’s easy to think about yourself as alone, unhappy, with no chance. It’s hard to change it, to feel the power of your own freedom. Yes, sometimes you can’t use your freedom the way you want it, but you have to try it or keep it real… Time is not an excuse for fear of freedom… Details also…

There is a time to feel yourself free… a question of priorities… Maybe the personal freedom is one of the things that really matter… Really?

The mayonnaise jar… and the beer

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar… and the beer.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous „yes.“ The professor then produced two cans of beer from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

„Now,“ said the professor, as the laughter subsided, „I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things– your family, your children, your health, your friends, your favorite passions– things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. „The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car. The sand is everything else– the small stuff“

If you put the sand into the jar first,“ he continued, „there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups, take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house, and fix the disposal.

„Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.“

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the beer represented. The professor smiled. „I’m glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of beers.“

Why I chose MovableType or again about freedom

Well, the reason that my site is a kind of blog at the moment is that more than a year I read other blogs, thinking if I really want to build a blog for myself. Next step was to find my kind of blog software… Finally I chose MovableType… Why? I am a fan of free and open source software…
Before a month ago Zak Greant in Salle’s car told me that he wants to support a small projects like MovableType even it isn’t open source… OK, but this wasn’t the right argument for me… There are a lot of useless small projects… OK – MovableType is great… but this is not enough again…

I found MovableType before an year. I tested it and I liked it, but the moment is different now… I needed that year to decide for myself what I preffer – free software (free as freedom, not as free beer) or open source software… After many hours of thinking I chose open… because of openness, because of evolution… because of open-minding…

Freedom is nothing without a reason for freedom… without something that gives me a meaning for freedom… And that reason is the Evolution, creativity, making things good… That’s why I chose MovableType – because of promotion of Creative Commons Licenses. Because for me the most important than freedom is sharing… Sharing knowledge, emotions, experience and again freedom of course… Blogging is sharing also…

It is stupid to keep freedom with rules or prohibitions. Nobody can ban freedom. It cannot be a taboo to open your freedom the way you want it. If you can’t do that you are not free at all.

So I decided that most important feature of my definition for freedom is that I can redefine it… And to be sure that I can guarantee for my own evolution…

Smoke on the water

Yesterday I met Kaloian – a friend of mine… Several weeks ago he found a personal problem that make him stop drinking, smoking, smiling… So fragile we are really…
Yesterday I saw him smoking again :-) Thirsty to be engaged in projects… „Welcome to live, man“, Zdravko said :-)

Welcome to live! I am happy too! Sometimes smoking is really good :-)